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Tuscaloosa: Riversong
By Honorée Fanonne Jeffers for Mister Weaver 1. Black Warrior speaks The night before they came, I walked on my river. I had strange dreams: bloody shouts to the sun, bodies in the trees, twirling legless. I sang until morning. I sang, and the white ones were here sniffing an empty breast. They are here but I cannot die. My tribe is strong behind our drums and sliced trees. We are strong against these whites with sticks like dirty breath, these silly children snatching toys. They do not see me. My tongue is strong and hides me. I cannot die. They do not see me walking on my river, my teeth biting at early chains. They only know they choke on my songs. 2. DeSoto speaks I have seen him before all over the world. This Indian, this Tuscaloosa, this red man with the black name dares to think he will defeat me and my tribe. Who is he to imagine he will kill me with his songs, sacred or commonplace? Who is he to be sure that his spirits will hear, float down this river, sting the skin of slaves? I am the one who cries the music of God, and Tuscaloosa is mine. He cannot live past my morning into night. I want his seed to die in this water. I want his mouth wounded with slime. Tuscaloosa. I will push him into that river, this warrior of a cracked womb. His song will never be earth or flesh. 3. Tuscaloosa sleeps in the water stirs the silt of blues makes music of ashes feeds death clotted anger Tuscaloosa sleeps in the water sucks gore from his lungs strips the green crucifix roars the gumbo scream Tuscaloosa Tuscaloosa Tuscaloosa Trane's Alabama a Creole agony blood slung through air a throat-filled epiphany death licking madness an elegy for mud 4. This is the river of no longer. Here by the side of the Black Warrior, lights are woven through branches. Water level signs hang from the trees: 1919 1857 1913 1989 and on. A memory of what is no longer painful. From year to year the levels of the water climb higher than before, and in the spring the people of the town visit mounds filled with bones. They buy feathers and skin painted bright colors, or whistles drilled with holes that make sounds of animals unnecessary and small. No one talks of the year he died. Tuscaloosa is a river, a place where quiet blood is shed. Tuscaloosa is a river, signs nailed to trees. We do not speak in old tongues. We blow pretty noises through holes. 5. Tuscaloosa. This is not the river, so long, so wide, Hayden's water, baptism of survival. The river that Mama and I crossed over one summer, crossed over history's concrete back, the river that made her ask, Do you think we should pray I can't See the shore this is the river the slaves Had to cross oh God I can't see The shore do you think we should pray? This is not Jordan, only the river DeSoto tossed three hundred souls into, watched the water grow tall as they squirmed like dancing stones, watched the water dark and struggling rise and rise, bubbles blowing from the children's mouths, mother's wet chants swallowed by dirt. This is not Jordan. There is not milk and honey waiting on the other side, only dead stones flat and smooth. This is not Jordan, only simple water muddied from a season of rain. This is not Jordan, but I have prayed at this shore anyway. 6. Tuscaloosa feathered with spirit red libation on the tongue claws mystery into earth scatters song on this river Tuscaloosa prayer of ancient thirst wind through clench fist claws mystery into earth scatters song on this river Tuscaloosa holy man swept into light gnarled root of God claws mystery into earth scatters song on this river Tuscaloosa Tuscaloosa Tuscaloosa dark arms cup the blade blue spit in the scripture's eye do not walk across my water do this in remembrance of me |
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| Published: 23 September
2005
© 2005 Honorée Fanonne Jeffers and Southern Spaces |
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